Focusing on one of Allah’s attributes was our assignment this week. So, first I went looking for a list of His attributes. As, I went through the list I wanted to pick one that would be a challenge but one also that I had some deep understanding about, I picked Ash-Shaheed.
A challenge truly, most of the days pass, without you thinking of Him, only when you pray. I was surprised to see how I had to constantly remind myself that Allah was a witness to all my deeds, all my intentions and all of my thoughts….I found myself trying to be more truthful, even little things I usually let go, I stopped myself from proceding. This is what we are suppose to do and strive for, but curbing your self is one of the hardest things to do, holding your tongue and overlooking others misgivings go right along.
Ya, Shaheed, you are all knowing, all hearing, all seeing, you know what I know not, please forgive me for my sins, accept my repentance, and allow me to accept Your will, Ameen, Ameen wal hamdulillahi rabil alameen.
(This was one of the homework assignments submitted for the class Message for the Seekers of Guidance taught by Imam Suhaib Webb in the Spring of 2009)